Wednesday, September 30, 2009

Well, I am now going to the wedding by myself. Which is fine. I love weddings regardless of having a date or not- I've been to plenty of weddings, and all of them I attended alone. It just stinks to have your hopes up about inviting someone and then have them drop. Twice. The second time, I'm going to assume isn't because of fear or awkwardness or anything like that. Just because the wedding is on a Friday and Fridays are inconvenient for many students...

BUT it's a wedding. And it will be fun.

And I just learned of some interesting news. About some people that I know and their incredible ability to be rude. I just.... I can't believe it. I should've guessed. I am shocked at your lack of class, people. Disappointment.

This won't last much longer.
I shouldn't let it.

Monday, September 28, 2009


^This is the only picture that I have from the rave... I wish I had a ton more to show you. But I didn't want to chance losing my camera amidst the sea of people.

My weekend, needless to say, was absolutely fantastic. I looked good, I felt great, and I met a TON of really awesome people. The music was loud and crazy fun. The room was hot but the night was chill. It was all just really fabulous.

I got to see Jake. He is absolutely one of my most favorite people ever. He's incredibly nice and fun to be around. I also got to see my brother, Matt, which was awesome. I love my brother. He is hilarious.

Ah.... I'm just so happy with all the people that I met and that I saw. Katie, Jessica, and Meagan were there. I think that they had a good time too, which makes me very happy as well. I wanted everyone to have a really good time. And I just cannot stop smiling, because I feel like everyone did have a really good time. There was minimal problems, no cops, nothing got broken... just all around good!

I was over there pretty much all weekend. I kicked butt in Mario Kart Wii, I helped set up things, and I just chilled around. The only bad things that happened was that Josh hurt his wrist when rearranging his room and I woke up the next morning to find this really cool girl, Amanda, in a homemade sling. Apparently, she had done a cartwheel outside on the wet grass and fell. She now has a fractured elbow, I think. I felt really bad for her, but I know that she did enjoy her night up till that point at least.

I met this really cool guy named Josh. I really like him. :] So I figured I might as well not be all secretive about it on here. I like him. There ain't nothin' wrong 'bout that.

I thought about putting a flat note in this note. Fortunately, I've decided to leave you all on the same note on which I began- a happy, natural note. So we'll leave all the flats for later.

That's all. <3

Wednesday, September 23, 2009

So the rave is on Friday and I was like, "Oh, hey. I should get some of that crazy neon hair spray stuff and use it." What I didn't really think too much about is how badly Mere or my parents will kill me if it doesn't wash out by the time of the wedding. I think I should be alright- it's the stuff kids' use for Halloween. But the can also says to test it on a small part of your hair if you have light hair... "USE CAUTION" I believe are the exact words. Anyway, the picture is my test run.

So if I die on October 9th... Well, it was nice knowing the people I did for a while.


Tuesday, September 22, 2009

This amused me.

Ten Things I Wish I Could Say to Ten Different People. (but don't say their name)

10. You've brought my faith back to life. And yet, you think that I'm the one who is more mature. There is a reason that I couldn't tell you why I was upset the other night. I'm sorry. I'm not as mature as you think.
9. Out of the blue. And *poof* it's not the same. I just wish I had seen it coming. I still defend you. Even if you don't do the same for me.
8. You can insult my family. I can't stop you from thinking that way even if you are wrong. But then expect me to insult your intelligence afterwards. By the way, you were a way to rebel and piss people off. Never again.
7. Yo, I am not an idiot. I know you like me. So don't yell at me because I don't return the feelings. You're a good friend and I'm doing everything in my power not to hurt you. P.S. Your perspective on life could use a little work.
6. If you weren't in my life, I'd be more of a trainwreck. You listen without question. I will never ever forget you- you will always be a best friend.
5. You complain a lot. But you've always been there for me. And quite frankly, who doesn't complain? I love you and miss you and our crazy adventures. Life is slightly boring without you around.
4. You can tell me that it was your fault. You can say that I did nothing wrong. But I will always believe that I was the one at fault. And now I've destroyed pretty much everything that I ever hoped of sharing with you and you claim that you don't know what I am anymore. If anyone was supposed to understand- it was supposed to be you. You say you're trying. Yet, you say you aren't around and you don't stay in touch. How is that trying? Ugh- forget it. There is just way too much that I have never said to you. This isn't the place for it.
3. You always make my day a little bit better. No matter what.
2. I really want this to work. And I'm really hoping you're not going to be a jerk. Cause I think you're great. Always have. Don't worry. I do really want this to work though- it's pretty obvious, I think.
1. You're girlfriend should kill me. Either that or my guilt will.

Nine things about myself:

9. I don't say much. I think it instead.
8. Sometimes I think that my crazy fascination with Disney will scare off people. More importantly, boys, haha.
7. I'm sick of MI. More importantly, my home town. I am unbelievably excited to possibly not be there next summer. I need a change.
6. I don't like receiving anonymous things like flowers and notes. Don't admire me secretly- tell me to my face. I know it's scary... but I won't lash out at you and plus, it makes you appear more confident, which is more attractive than the cowardice of hiding anonymously. I've just had bad experiences with it... haha so yeah.
5. There is this whole version of me that I'm afraid to show. Because as much as I'd like to deny it- I am afraid people wouldn't like me.
4. I read an article about how it's scientifically proven that redheads experience more pain than people with other hair colors. And now I wonder if the same holds true for broken hearts.
3. I think like a tragic poet sometimes. So sue me. #4 proves it slightly, haha. People mistake me as a pessimist then. Which is ridiculous because I'm not- I actually love life. A lot. I'm just realistic. I'm not going to sugar-coat it for you.
2. I had my friend Tiffany order me a pizza when she was down in Arkansas. My parents believed that to be a sign that I am terrified of my own shadow basically. Truth is, I thought it would be really funny and I miss Tiffany.
1. Dresses make me feel confident and graceful and beautiful. Until I trip and fall... Which has yet to happen so we're good.

Eight ways to win my heart.

8. Music. Guitar is a plus. Piano is a plus. Singing is a huge plus. Just music. I love it.
7. Make me laugh- apparently, I don't do it enough.
6. HONEST flattery is always nice. Say cute things to me. Say nice things to me. Make me blush. Be sweet. That kind of stuff.
5. Faith and morals. I find that unbelievably attractive and respectable.
4. Listen to me. And when I tell you that I'm being truly honest- I am. Don't tell me I'm lying. That just upsets and frustrates me.
3. Do stuff even if you don't really like it maybe? Like... if I want to watch the Notebook or a sappy chick-flick or a Disney movie, watch it with me.
2. Hold my hand.
1. Be confident. Take chances. Be spontaneous. All that stuff... haha

Seven things that cross my mind a lot.

7. The future freaks me out.
6. Boys- it's a love/hate thing
5. fairytales or dreams
4. Music
3. Walking outside on a nice day
2. homework that I neglect to do
1. whether or not to take a nap.

Six things I do before I fall asleep

6. wash my face/go to the bathroom
5. set my alarm
4. turn on my lamp so i can see where i'm going to get up into bed
3. pray
2. toss and turn with restless thoughts.
1. watch friends.

Five people who mean a lot.

5. Mom and Dad and siblings.
4. Grandparents.
3. Alana and Mandy and all my close friends.
2. Mia, my dog.
1. Aaron.

Four things you're wearing right now.

4. NW shirt that we signed.
3. Red shorts :]
2. Black hat
1. contacts

Two things you want to do before you die.

2. Get married and have kids and help support a family (I think all those things go together)
1. Help create something that brings happiness to everyone- Disney movie.

One confession.

1. I believe that love has a meaning. But I don't believe that it matters.

I was going to put something at the bottom of this whole thing, but I forget what it was. I got too distracted... hahahaha

Sunday, September 20, 2009

Well, here I am yet again.

My birthday came and went. It was a lot of fun and I am happy to say that I have some of the greatest friends in the world. I got this really cute hat, a cd, a coloring book basically, and candy. And there was a LOT of cake. There still is a LOT of cake, haha.

I went to Frankenmuth yesterday with Jessica. It was unbelievably fun and we've decided that when we go back, we're renting mopeds. I'm really excited about that. Oh, AND we ate at a SONIC. It was unbelievably amazing. We jammed to Honor Society pretty much all the way home. When we started to get closer to the apartment, we put on "Livin' on a Prayer" and basically blew out our vocal chords. Then we did another livechat- which is turning out to be extremely amusing.

Now I have all this homework to do. And I'd rather be out enjoying my day... So I think I'll put it off. I need to go to the book store anyway. So I'll probably go sit out on the grass, read a book, go play piano, go to the bookstore, and then start on my homework.

I really need my texting plan to reset itself. I'm going to get in trouble with the bill. Like whoa.

I got a new dress. And I finished putting up my posters. I may post pictures sooner or later. Maybe.

Monday, September 14, 2009

Sleepless nights

I cannot bring myself to do my painting homework. It is due at 2PM today. And I can't sleep anyway. And it's already almost 3:30AM.

Today, I went swimming with Katie. It was a lot of fun and the perfect end to my weekend. I even came back to my room and hung up my Disney posters (most of them)- pictures will be up eventually. I watched a bit of the VMAs and finished part of my painting assignments and my german homework.

I'm skeptical about Tuesday. Part of me is like, "YAY!" and the other part is like, "Oh geez.....". It's the strangest feeling ever.

Tonight, I was looking through old notes on facebook and found one that I had been tagged in- it was a survey about Disney princesses. I'm going to take it now:

[ ] One of your parents is dead
[x] You are expected to do a lot of chores
[x] You love to dress up
[x] You love animals
[x] You are waiting patiently for your Prince Charming
[ ] Your mom is really strict
[ ] You have sisters who seem kind of jealous of you
[x] You’re afraid to speak your mind sometimes
[x] You have left your shoes at a friend’s house before
[ ] You have blonde hair

[x] You’ve kissed someone your friends didn’t like
[x]You’ve been lost in the forest
[x] You love to read
[ ] You are not shy at all, and not afraid to speak your mind
[x] One of your family members is a bit weird
[x] You have done volunteer work
[x] You have a wild imagination
[x] You love to take care of people in need
[x] You’ve had guys like you only because they think you’re pretty
[x] You’ve rejected at least one person when they’ve asked you out

[ ] Your dad is very rich/important
[x] You are very clever
[x] You’ve been with someone way different from you
[x] You’re unique and different from everyone else
[x] You’d never marry someone just because they were rich
[x] You have set a lot of goals for yourself
[ ] You don’t have a lot of friends
[x]You’re independent
[ ] You are wealthy
[x]Your parents try to control your life

[x] Your parents expect a lot from you
[x] You really try to follow the rules, but it’s hard for you
[ ] You’re a bit of a trouble maker
[x] You’re the youngest in your family or in the last 2
[ ] You have a lot of sisters (3 or more)
[x] You collect something
[x] You have/had long, hair
[x] You have/had a pet fish
[x] You’re extremely curious
[ ] You believe everything people tell you/you’re a bit gullible

Snow White;
[x] You know that you’re beautiful
[ ] Sometimes it seems like your mom is jealous of you
[x] You’ve almost been killed
[x] You have at least seven good friends
[ ] You’ve had food poisoning
[x] You have/had short hair
[x] You get along with almost everyone
[x] All of your friends are different
[x] You love to have a good time
[x] You’re happier when you’re out of the house than in

[x] You can be a tomboy sometimes.
[ ] People wish you could be a bit more girly
[x] You’ve pretended to be someone you’re not
[ ] You’ve had a physical fight with someone
[x] You have/had considered running away from home
[x] Your parents try to plan your life out
[x] a lot of your friends are boys
[x] You sometimes find yourself in bad situations
[x] You love your family so much that you’d do anything to protect them


[x] You live/have lived with someone other than your parents
[ ] You almost died at a very young age
[x] You are gentle, loving, and/or thoughtful
[x] You have a decent singing voice
[x] You like to sleep in late on the weekends
[x] You spend most of your time outside
[ ] You’re adopted
[x] You’re very romantic
[x] Pink is one of your favorite colors (this upsets me because Aurora's dress is blue for most of the movie. I love blue. So I'm going to pretend it says blue.)

[x] You love to walk around and explore big cities
[ ] You are more spiritual than religious
[ ] You’ve been in an interracial relationship
[x] One of your family members is dead (mom, dad, sister, brother, grandma, grandpa)
[x] Your parents are very protective of you
[x] Someone you know has been in war
[x] You love nature
[ ] You have/had black hair
[x] You would love to move somewhere exotic and beautiful
[x] You’re very adventurous

Take the princess’s name that you got the most in and repost…if you have more than 1, play eeney meaney myney moe with them until you get an answer and…
Repost this as, If I were a Disney Princess, I’d be _____
BELLE..... which I find quite hilarious for inside joke reasons.... hahaha

Alright, time to start on the painting, I guess....

Sunday, September 13, 2009


So lately, I've decided that it seems like every girl has this card^ pinned to her back at some point in time. Boys see it and take it as an easy way to trick those girls into believing anything. Sometimes, the girls' friends see this card and try to point it out to the girl wearing it. No one ever wants to believe they are being fooled. But then, even some girls see this before it happens- they feel the card being gently placed on their back. Sometimes they can't reach it to rip it off.

All I know is that I try to be the most honest of an individual that I can be. I don't want people to lie to me and so I try not to lie to them- it seems like an even exchange to me. Yet, this card seems to have been passed on to me for the time being. I just want to let you know: I'm not oblivious. I'll catch you in a lie.

The most you can do is disappoint me.

Friday, September 11, 2009

You know, I don't really know what I want to write about today.
I also figured that writing something is more productive than falling back asleep.

Apparently, I could not sleep last night. I had a very long and in depth conversation with my friend Jake until about 2AM. After that, I took some Nyquil and hopped up into my lofted bed. I seriously tossed and turn for what seemed like an hour (probably only a half hour) and then finally I fell asleep and was COMPLETELY knocked out. Like, I'm lucky I woke up for my alarm, I think.

I got a text last night that read this, "Hey, i know its really late... I really hope im not waking you, but i have a question for you. And its probably not what youd expect..." (sent at 3:43AM). I still have not been asked whatever question the individual has for me. And although it does spark my interest, I figure that people should realize that there is nothing that I don't expect nowadays. The world is a crazy place that is full of unexpected things. Therefore, I find it best to "expect the unexpected", if you will.

Everyone is going to MSU this weekend, I guess. Well, everyone but me pretty much. I need to get some homework done so it'll be nice in that aspect. But still, part of me feels like I'm missing out- the other part of me is like HECK YES! haha. I'm hoping that this weekend will be full of unexpected, pleasant surprises. :]

Classes are boring. There is no other way to put it really. The only interesting class that I have is my TAI class and that is a performance class.

Other than that- life is pretty normal. Oh, I found out that my buddy, Matt, is moving to WI on my birthday. This saddens me, obviously. He's going to be really missed. A lot.

The Disney presentation is next month and I could not be more anxious and excited about it! And right after I get that all figured out, I have Mere and Mike's wedding to attend!!!! <3

That's all for now.

Thursday, September 3, 2009

I was, of course, out for a walk on this fine evening and while I strolled along, I had some very significant thoughts that prevailed in my head. I would like to share a lot of them with you:
  • immaturity is highly overrated.
  • my gender disappoints me greatly quite often (that's not to say that the other gender doesn't disappoint).
  • I shouldn't be judged for just one mistake. If you're going to judge me, take into account all of the mistakes that I've made. Granted, I'd prefer that you kept an open mind and forgive me for them instead.
  • Texting is going to be the death of me when I get home.
  • I'm so much different than everyone else out there that it almost scares me. Almost. Okay, maybe a little bit.
  • Faith is extremely important to me. EXTREMELY.
  • I got distracted and forgot about what I was going to write exactly... Oops.
Well, I'm going to chow down on some snacks now. I just bought a ton from the C3 downstairs and I'm actually craving all sorts of food right now. I'll pop in some more Criminal Minds, snack, think about tomorrow, and say a few prayers.

Goodnight, everybody.